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| Xanga... I'm done with you. Despite our many good times, I don't even care enough any more to make this last post remotely eloquent, because no one's going to read it. Everyone's migrated to Facebook. Enjoy your gradual demise. | | |
| I'll be home for Christmas break late on the 16th, and home 'til the 14th of January. It's going to be like summer all over again, except, cold. Meaning no frisbee. But, there will sledding to avenge the lack of disc! Sledding and snow gladiating! Now to just get my sister to never need to use my car...
If you wanna hang out, please don't hesitate to call me up. I'm relying on you folks to call me and fill my schedule so that I know what to do with myself for FOUR WEEKS. If you don't have my number, well, that's tough. I'm not posting it on the internet. Except on Facebook. | | |
| Alright folks, it's officialy no-shave November, so put away your razors. The only legitimate excuse any of you should have for not participating is if you have a nice job. No trimming of the moustache, neck, or anything else. Looking unkempt is the goal here. This goes for guys AND girls! Depending on your family, it's alright for you to shave before Thanksgiving and stop there. I won't be though.
Below are my "before" pictures. I cheated a little with a head-start; I haven't shaved in almost a week. As you can see though, my hair doesn't grow overly fast, and I don't even think I'm capable of a full beard yet, so my lead may be futile. We'll see though.
Let the beard bonanza begin! | | |
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So, on Friday, I got my first tattoo (I say "first" because I've heard they're addictive). It says, in Hebrew, "forgiven." This is really meaningful to me, because when I find myself at the lowest points in my life where I'm farthest from God, I'm repeatedly convicted and humbled by the fact that He still loves me and wants me back, despite me stabbing Him in the back over and over again. I got it in Hebrew because that, along with Aramaic, was the primary language used to record most of the Bible, though much of the New Testament was written in Greek so that the common people could find it accessible.
This definitely was not an impulse decision; I sat on the idea for a good half-year or so. I knew I wanted something incredibly meaningful to me, as well as something that would make a statement about my faith, though now God's going to hold me accountable to that. I definitely wanted to avoid a cross tattoo at all costs, since they are quite trendy now, and sadly, have lost virtually all meaning in our society. The piece is certainly a conversation starter, as everyone is curious to know its meaning. I'm struggling with telling people; I always want to explain why I got it and that it's not just for looks, but then people feel like I'm preaching to them.
My parents were not supportive of the idea, though they also did not stop me. They have no problem with the design itself, but rather are worried for my sake that people will judge me and stereotype for it. As sad and stupid as that is, I understand it to be true. I was fully aware of those potential repercussions when I got the ink done, however. It won't be difficult to remember to wear long sleeves when I go to apply for jobs, or meet a special lady's parents. It's just a matter of establishing a positive reputation and relationship with them before I unveil it, since first impressions really are everything, unfortunately. Despite all that though, I have no regrets whatsoever, and couldn't be happier with the way it turned out. | | |
| AzrimEkim: - hi jessaB
scrambeforeIeatu: - hey!
- how's it going!?!!
AzrimEkim: - totally righteous
scrambeforeIeatu: - REALLY?!
- sweet dood.
- it's so gloomy and rainy over here
AzrimEkim: - same here
- it makes me crave BLACK METAL
- \m/
scrambeforeIeatu: - hahaha
- you're silly mike.
AzrimEkim: - i actually hardly listen to metal anymore though
scrambeforeIeatu: - hahaha
- LIES!
AzrimEkim: - seriously
- why would i lie about that?
scrambeforeIeatu: - hahaha
- I'm not buying it mike, nooooot buying it.
AzrimEkim: - that's fine
- it's true though
- i'm not going to waste time trying to convince you
scrambeforeIeatu: - really?!
- how come?
AzrimEkim: - it's not worth the effort
scrambeforeIeatu: - mike...I'm not worth telling?
- basically..I'm not a good enough friend for you to tell?
- I'm hurt.
AzrimEkim: - huh?
- i said it's not worth the effort to prove to you that i don't listen to metal anymore
- i have no easy way of displaying that fact
scrambeforeIeatu: - haha. ok. but I'm wondering 'WHY?'
AzrimEkim: - it got boring
- i explored every sub-genre on the planet
scrambeforeIeatu: - ha ha ha
AzrimEkim: - i still listen to my old favorites, but new stuff i hear all bores me
scrambeforeIeatu: - yeah?
- wow.
- that's insane.
- and crazy.
- so what do you mostly listen to now..then?
AzrimEkim: - lots of stuff
- first it was jazz
- then blues
- then psychedelic ambient
- lately it's been electronica
scrambeforeIeatu: - I love electronica.
- I had a bit of a phase with electronica.
AzrimEkim: - yeah? like who?
scrambeforeIeatu: - nothing huge.
- I just wanted to get into it more.
AzrimEkim: - probably imogen heap
scrambeforeIeatu: - that's not really considered 'electronica'... is it?
AzrimEkim: - somewhat
- it's awesome regardless
- i have lots of other stuff though
- both with and without vocals
scrambeforeIeatu: - awesome.
- well, I'm happy for you..and your new love.
AzrimEkim: - haha
- it kinda stinks, i never want to wear black shirts any more
- and that's about half of my wardrobe
scrambeforeIeatu: - you've changed. dang.
- but it's cool.
- we all have.
AzrimEkim: - this was starting to happen before college
scrambeforeIeatu: - yeah, I could see it.
AzrimEkim: - really?
- how?
scrambeforeIeatu: - not necessarily the music interests....just the way you were acting...and such.
- you're growing up mike, you're growing up so fast.
- :(
- haha.
AzrimEkim: - !
- did i hurt you some how?
- i'm really sorry if i did
scrambeforeIeatu: - no, you didn't.
- not at all.
AzrimEkim: - give me examples!
scrambeforeIeatu: - of what?
AzrimEkim: - how you saw me changing
- you've piqued my curiosity
scrambeforeIeatu: - haha.
- ok...
- well, I know you've always done those summer camps..and all..but it seemed like that really changed you somehow (which by the way..is way cool..) I mean, not saying you were a horrible person or anything..goodness no! what I am saying..is that..you've changed for the better. like...
- I can't really expain how....but I know you have. You've always had this fire and passion for Christ..but that just made it go crazier... you just seem mighty focussed. and I like that.
- it's really cool how people look up to you. I don't know if you even realize it.
- I do.
AzrimEkim: - i can somewhat see that
- this is going to sound horrible
- but when i came home over labor day, it was more my family and friends' sake than for me
- i feel like there are more people who miss me than i miss
- especially in the TEC community
scrambeforeIeatu: - no..that doesn't sound horrible. I understand.
AzrimEkim: - there's only a small group now, which you are a part of, that i'd still be interested in staying in touch with
- but most people from high school, and even from TEC, i really don't care if i ever see again
scrambeforeIeatu: - aww thanks. I really wish I could have seen you though... but sometime....amy and I will take a train to chicago.
AzrimEkim: - righteous!
scrambeforeIeatu: - hah.
AzrimEkim: - but anyways, it's mostly because i realize that i'll have to accept the fact that i simply won't see most of them again, so i might as well come to peace with that
- it just takes most people a lot longer to do that
- they make it more painful for themselves
scrambeforeIeatu: - totally.
AzrimEkim: - i'm in a new life now, i have to accept that and make the best of it
- and i have
scrambeforeIeatu: - good for you, really.
- that's awesome.
AzrimEkim: - i really appreciate that
scrambeforeIeatu: - I'm not too close to anyone at my school right now...so it's not going to be too hard if I ever left somewhere.
- and TEC... I don't know. I don't know how many more...or even if I want to work anymore. It's a sweet thing..it really is... but idk.
AzrimEkim: - it's a great program
- when matt landheer was going through the things i'm going through right now, he told me how TEC friends come and go, and that he was burned out on the program, and on high school in general
- at the time, i thought he was crazy
- but looking at it now, i feel the exact same way
- i guess it's just a rite-of-passage sort of thing
scrambeforeIeatu: - I think so too.
- it really is a good program though.
- I just don't want to be so attatched to it. you know?
- I don't really think I am anyways.
AzrimEkim: - you almost can't help it though, haha
scrambeforeIeatu: - hah.
AzrimEkim: - i kinda wanna post this entire conversation on my xanga, but i think a lot of people would be hurt by it, even though that's not my intention. this is just where i'm really at in the this point in my life
scrambeforeIeatu: - I like this conversation, a lot.
AzrimEkim: - it's definitely printer-worthy at the very least.
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